I want to share with everyone how I got into Taoism. It started about a month and a half ago, so it hasn’t been very long, when my boyfriend of almost three years broke up with me. When it happened I felt nothing but relief. For three years we broke up, got back together, broke up and got back together and finally broke up again. The last time we got back together I had gone through a change.
Imagine a seed in the ground. It’s starting to grow. The roots grow deep and strong into the ground. The shell of the see opens up and the first stem begins to grow. It touches the surface but doesn’t emerge. This is what I had felt like for the last three years. I felt like I was growing but never surfaced, I never completely made it through that last step. Finally, with the help of my amazing counselor, I broke through to the surface. When this happened and we got back together I wanted nothing more than to just have fun. I wanted to enjoy life. It didn’t work out that way.
We were in different places. I was happy with my life and he wasn’t so happy. It started to bring me down too. I talked to him, I tried to help him but it’s like it all went in one ear and out the other. No, even worse it never even reached his ears. I was getting sick of it and he was unhappy he finally ended it. I cried for about two hours to a friend over the phone. I’m lucky to have such great friends. I was depressed for a few weeks but during that time I discovered Taoism.
What stood out most to me is nature, balance and flow. Everything happens the way it is
supposed to happen. I am who I am and I should accept who I am. It is, what it is.
I started reading the Tao Te Ching and everyday I live in happiness. I have learned to laugh when my car breaks down in the middle of no where on a hot day with no cellphone service. I have learned to be with nature and enjoy it’s beauty. I’ve learned to enjoy being with myself. I have never been happier.
“When you are content to be simply yourself
and don’t compare or compete,
everybody will respect you.”
I am still learning the Tao. It is confusing to me sometimes but I learn by reading and by living. I learn through my dogs and through the hikes we go on. I learn from the trees to be strong and I learn from the water to yield. I’m still learning and loving every minute of it. I wouldn’t mind having someone to share this life with but I am in no rush. I’m happy with the way things are so whatever happens, happens.
I am very excited to continue my journey and I hope anyone who sees this will learn something or teach me something.